Makemake loa au e haʻi iā ʻoe i kaʻu moʻolelo a, manaʻo wau, he mea pono ia iā ʻoe. ʻO wau nō ka makuahine o ka ʻekolu, i nā keiki ʻōpio. ʻO ka hiapo a ke 30, ka muli loa o 18, ke keiki a 21. He hauʻoli wau a hiki i kekahi lā ua haʻi mai kaʻu kaikamahine kahiko iaʻu: "E kuʻu makuahine, aloha au i ka wahine."

Aia ʻo ia i ka manawa 24 o kēia makahiki. Ua hōʻea mai koʻu manaʻo i koʻu ʻike ʻana i kahi wahine kāne kāne ʻē aʻe e pili ana i kaʻu kaikamahine, akā, ʻoiai pinepine ʻia ka hana ʻana, ua hōʻino wau i kēia mai iaʻu iho, me ka manaʻoʻiʻo i kahi hopena maikaʻi loa no ke keiki. A laila hoʻoholo wau e ʻae wau i kāna koho a me kona ʻohana masculine. Ua kamaʻilio mākou, he mau hoaaloha, ua hālāwai wau i kekahi ʻāpana o kaʻu kaikamahine a he poʻe LGBT - nā kāne a me nā kaikamahine. Hele wau i nā pāʻina kumumanaʻo a hōʻaihewa wau i kā lākou moʻolelo, ma ke ʻano he mea pāʻani ʻo ia i ka makuahine o ke kaikamahine lesbi. 

I loko o ka hohonu o koʻu ʻuhane, manaʻolana wau e pāʻani nui kaʻu kaikamahine i kēia a loaʻa iā ia kahi hoaaloha, a he mau moʻopuna kaʻu, akā ua hopu ka wahine kāne i kāna kaikamahine me ka paʻa make. A laila hoʻomaka wau e aʻo a heluhelu nui e pili ana i ka psychology o ka pilina pili kāne, kahi i kūkulu ʻia ai nā mea āpau ma luna o ka codependency a me ka manipulation o kekahi. I ka hoʻopunipuni ʻana o kahi wahine kāne i kaʻu kaikamahine me kahi mea hana keaka (ua ʻike ʻo ia ma ke komo ʻana i kāna moʻokāki "wahine" a heluhelu i kāna palapala me ia), ua loaʻa iā ia kekahi mea kupaianaha. Ua lilo kona kaumaha i 38 kg, ua hoʻomaka ʻo ia e puhi nui, ʻaʻole hiamoe, a haʻalulu. A laila makaʻu loa wau no kona ola a hoʻolauleʻa wau iā lākou iho. Ua hala nā makahiki 3 mai ia manawa. Aia nō lāua. ʻO ke kaikamahine he 30, ʻo nā kūlana i noho ai lākou he hale hoʻolimalima me kahi ʻauʻau ma ka lumi kuke. Hoʻoweliweli kona psyche iaʻu, a ua lilo ia i mea hiki ʻole iaʻu ke kamaʻilio pū me ia, no ka mea, ua loaʻa kahi loli nui o nā waiwai. 

I hoʻokahi makahiki i hala aku nei, ua haʻi mai kaʻu kaikamahine muli loa ua aloha ʻo ia i kahi kaikamahine a makemake ʻo ia e noho pū me ia. ʻO ka ʻōlelo ʻana ua kaumaha wau, ʻaʻole ia e ʻōlelo ʻole ... Ua nīnau au: "ʻAe, pehea ʻoe e ʻike ai i kou ola i ka wā e hiki mai ana?" Pane mai ʻo ia iaʻu: "ʻOhana a me nā keiki." A laila haʻi aku au iā ia e pono i kāna "kāne" ke hoʻolako iā ia, a ma kēia hihia, hōʻole wau i kāna kākoʻo kālā. Hāʻawi wale au i ke kālā no ka ʻaina awakea. I kēia manawa ua hoʻoholo wau ʻaʻole e pāʻani i ka pāʻani o ka hoʻomanawanui a ʻaʻole hoʻi i ʻike i kaʻu "hunona kāne." 

E like me ka mea i manaʻo ʻia, ua hāʻule ka moku aloha i nā pōhaku o ke ola o kēlā me kēia lā. ʻO kēia "ʻohana" he 3 mahina. I kēia manawa, pili kaʻu muli loa i kahi keikikāne, ʻoiai ua hoʻi hou i ka pilina ma mua, akā he kumuhana kēia no ke kamaʻilio ʻana. 

Ke kū mai kekahi ʻano mea hiki ʻole ke hoʻomaopopo ʻia a me ka malihini i loko o ke kaiāulu, e hoʻāʻo mākou e noho ma ka ʻaoʻao; me he mea lā iā mākou ʻaʻole ia e hoʻopilikia iaʻu. E nā mākua aloha, he lono koʻu no ʻoukou! - Hana lākou me kā mākou mau keiki!!! Aia nā pūʻulu LGBT, he kakaikahi o lākou, ka mea, ma lalo o ke ʻano o ke kōkua noʻonoʻo, hoʻolaha i ka male kāne, a ʻoi aku hoʻi, komo i ka pimping a paipai i nā keiki e haʻalele i ko lākou ʻohana. Inā makemake ʻoe e hōʻoia, e paʻi i ka huaʻōlelo "LGBT" i loko o kahi ʻenekini huli, a e ʻike ʻoe aia ka nui o kēia mau pūʻulu i ka lehulehu. Ma kahi kokoke i nā hihia āpau, ua papa inoa ʻeleʻele au. ʻO wau wale nō, e hakakā ana e like me ka mea hiki iaʻu ke ʻohi liʻiliʻi i ka ʻike e ʻike ai. "A e ʻike ʻoe i ka ʻoiaʻiʻo, a na ka ʻoiaʻiʻo e hoʻokuʻu iā ʻoe." Paipai wau iā ʻoe e noʻonoʻo a noʻonoʻo i ka pilikia.