Wokondedwa wowerenga, dzina langa ndi Jake. Ndine wachiwerewere wakale wazaka makumi awiri kuchokera ku England. Zolemba izi ndi za iwo omwe amatsutsa lingaliro losintha malingaliro azakugonana. Akatswiri aphunzira zakugonana kwazaka zambiri ndipo apeza kuti kugonana kumakhala kosiyanasiyana mwa anthu ambiri. Umboni ukusonyeza kuti malingaliro azakugonana amatha kusintha pamoyo wawo wonse. Ndizowonetseratu kuti anthu ambiri amasintha malingaliro awo pakugonana. Ndine m'modzi wa anthuwa.
Sindimakondanso kugona ndi amuna; atsikana tsopano ali okongola kwambiri kwa ine. Poyamba sindinkaganiza choncho, koma tsopano ndikuganiza.
Nthawi ina, kugona tulo usiku, ndinadziyerekeza ndili m'manja mwa munthu wina, tsopano ndimatha kudziyerekeza ndekha ndi mtsikana wamkazi.
Ena sasangalala ndi izi. Sakhala otsimikiza za kugonana kwawo kotero kuti sangathe kuvomereza kuti pali ena omwe salinso ndi malingaliro awo. Amakhala osangalala kwambiri pamene anthu asinthana ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, koma sakonda izi zikachitika. Nthawi zina anthu ngati ine amatchedwa oyambitsa udani, ndipo chifukwa chake sindikufuna kugona ndi amuna!
Akadakonda ndikangokhala chete osintha zogonana zanga, ndikukhala mabodza ndikukana zomwe zidachitika? Inde, zikuwoneka! Amafuna kundiletsa, kundilepheretsa kukhala ndi moyo womwe ndimasankha, komanso kundikakamiza kuti ndizitsogolera moyo womwe amawona kuti ndi wofunikira!
Sikuti ndinangosiya kugonana, komanso ndimakhala wosangalala. Ine ndekha ndiziwongolera moyo wanga momwe ndikufuna, osati momwe amandiuzira. Ndinaganiza zosintha kugonana kwanga ndipo ndinazichita.
Kugwira mawu ochirikiza ana:
Ndili pano!
Sindingatengenso ulemu!
Kuzolowera!
Nkhani yonse m'Chingerezi: https://www.equalityandjusticeforall.org/diary-of-an-ex-gay-man