Ngifuna ukukutshela indaba yami, futhi ngithemba ukuthi, izoba wusizo kuwe. Ngingunina wezingane ezintathu, esezikhulile izingane. Indodakazi endala ye-30, encane kunazo zonke ze-18, indodana ye-21. Ngangiwumama ojabulayo kwaze kwathi ngolunye usuku indodakazi yami endala yangitshela ukuthi: "Mama, ngiyamthanda umuntu wesifazane."

Wayekhona ngaleso sikhathi i-24 yonyaka. Imicabango yafika kimi lapho ngibona owesimame omangalisayo ngaphandle kwendodakazi yami, kodwa, njengoba kwenzeka kaningi, ngikushushisile lokhu kimi, ngikholelwa ekutheni ikusasa lengane lingcono. Ngabe senginquma ukuthi ngizokwamukela ukukhetha kwakhe kanye nomndeni wakhe wesilisa. Sasixoxa, singabangani, ngahlangana naleyo ngxenye yendodakazi yami eyayingabamele abantu be-LGBT - abafana namantombazane. Ngiye emicimbini yama-theme ngaze ngathola inkanyezi ochungechungeni lwabo, lapho ayedlala khona umama wentombazane yesoka. 

Ekujuleni komphefumulo wami, nganginethemba lokuthi indodakazi yami izodlala kwanele lokhu futhi izoba nesoka, futhi nginabazukulu, kodwa owesifazane wesilisa wabamba indodakazi yakhe ngokufa. Ngabe sengiqala ukutadisha nokufunda okuningi mayelana ne-psychology yobudlelwano bezitabane, lapho yonke into yakhelwe phezu kwe-codependency kanye nokukhwabanisa komunye nomunye. Lapho owesifazane wesilisa ekhohlisa indodakazi yami nomdlali we-actress (wathola ngokungena ku-akhawunti "yomkakhe" futhi efunda izincwadi zakhe naye), kwenzeka into emangalisayo kuye. Wehla isisindo safinyelela ku-38 kg, waqala ukubhema kakhulu, akazange alale, futhi wayeqhaqhazela. Ngabe sengiyesaba kakhulu impilo yakhe futhi ngababuyisana nami. Sekudlule iminyaka emi-3 kusukela lapho. Basahlangene. Indodakazi ineminyaka engu-30, isimo abahlala ngaphansi kwaso yindlu yokuqasha eneshawa ekhishini. Umqondo wakhe uyangethusa, futhi sekungenzeki kimina ukuxhumana naye, njengoba kuye kwaba noshintsho olukhulu lwezindinganiso. 

Ngonyaka odlule, indodakazi yami encane yangitshela ukuthi yathandana nentombazane futhi yayifuna ukuhlala nayo. Ukusho ukuthi ngangiphelelwe ithemba kuwukungasho lutho... ngabuza: “Kulungile, ukubheka kanjani ukuphila kwakho esikhathini esizayo?” Wangiphendula: “Umkhaya nabantwana.” Ngabe sengimtshela ukuthi “umyeni” wakhe kumelwe amnakekele, futhi kulokhu ngenqaba ukusekela kwakhe ngokwezimali. Ngakhipha imali yesidlo sasemini kuphela. Kulokhu nganquma ukungawudlali umdlalo wokubekezelelana futhi angizange ngimazi ngisho “nomkhwenyana” wami. 

Njengoba bekulindelekile, umkhumbi wothando waphahlazeka emadwaleni okuphila kwansuku zonke. Lo “mndeni” wathatha izinyanga ezi-3. Manje uthunjana wami uphola nomfana, nakuba kube nokubuyela emuva ekubuyeleni ebuhlotsheni obudlule, kodwa lesi isihloko senye ingxoxo. 

Uma kwenzeka into ethile engaqondakali nengajwayelekile emphakathini, sizama ukuba seceleni, kithina kubonakala sengathi lokhu akusoze kwangithinta. Mina, bazali abathandekayo, nginiphathele izindaba! - Basebenza nezingane zethu !!! Kunamaqembu e-LGBT, ambalwa nje kuwo, okuthi, ngaphansi kwesithunzi sosizo lwezengqondo, akhuthaze ubungqingili, futhi ngaphezu kwalokho, ahlanganyele ekuqotheni futhi akhuthaze izingane ukuba zishiye imindeni yazo. Uma ufuna ukwenza isiqiniseko, thayipha igama elithi “LGBT” enjinini yokusesha, futhi uzobona ukuthi amaningi alawa maqembu asendaweni yomphakathi. Cishe kuzo zonke izimo, ngifakwe ohlwini lwabavinjelwe. Ngangingedwa, ngilwa ngakho konke engangingakwenza futhi ngiqoqa ulwazi kancane kancane ukuze ngiluthole. “Niyolazi iqiniso, futhi iqiniso liyonikhulula.” Ngikhuthaza ukuthi uhlaziye futhi ufunde udaba.