Muva nje eRussia kube nokukhula okukhulu kwezicelo ezivela kubantu abasha kanye nentsha "zokushintsha ubulili". Ukuqala kulo mbono kwenzeka ngenxa yokuchayeka entsheni Inkulumo-ze ye-LGBT enolaka ku-inthanethi. Khona-ke intsha, ngenxa yezimpawu zeminyaka yobudala, ithelelana kalula nalokhu kuthatheka ngaphansi kokuqondisa kwama-curators nama-manipulators.
Kaningi kaningi eqenjini leSayensi Yeqiniso ikheli abazali abalahlekelwe ukuxhumana nezingane zabo ngenxa yokuzibandakanya kwabo embuthweni we-LGBT*. Kunzima ngomuntu ovamile ukwazisa ukulahlekelwa okunjalo, kodwa izinyembezi nokuhlupheka kwabazali abaneshwa kungabasiza baqonde ubuhlanya obenzekayo. Nansi enye indaba engenzeka kunoma yimuphi umndeni, ngisho nophumelelayo.
*Inhlangano ye-LGBT ibonwa njengenhlangano eyeqisayo!
Kafushane ngendodana: uhlakaniphile, wakhula njengomfana onekhono, olalelayo, ojabulayo, waba nabangane abaningi, njalo wabasiza abazali bakhe. Yonke iminyaka ngifunde iminyaka emihlanu. Wafunda izilimi ezi-5 ngesikhathi esifanayo, wathola iziqu ezimbili zegolide futhi wahlanganyela ku-All-Russian Olympiads. Wayethanda ezemidlalo, waya eqhweni iminyaka engu-2, volleyball iminyaka engu-2, eneminyaka engu-15 wagijima izikhathi 2 ngesonto for 15 km.
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Funda kabanzi »Imicabango ivame ukuza ukuthi akusekho amandla.
Uma ngolunye usuku ngingakwazi ukubekezelela, khona-ke ake
kuzoba yindaba yethu. Mhlawumbe othile uzosiza.
Futhi uma kungenjalo, makuhlale kungumlando
impilo eyodwa ephukile nezinhlungu zobuhlanya.
Sithintwe ngumama onendodana eneminyaka engamashumi amabili ubudala yavele yayeka inyuvesi ngonyaka wesine yabaleka ekhaya ukuze kungabikho noyedwa ongamvimba "ekushintsheni ubulili". Konke lokhu kwaqala eminyakeni embalwa eyedlule ngengxoxo nentombazane engajwayelekile kwi-Intanethi, enokuthambekela okucacile kokukhohlisa, ukuzithoba kanye ne-gynemimethophilia - okuheha abesilisa abagqoke izingubo zabesifazane nabesilisa abesilisa nabesifazane. Le ntombazane ayibizi indodana yakhe ngalutho ngaphandle kokuthi "ntombazane yami engiyithandayo." Kukhona ukuthonya kwengqondo kuye njalo kanye nesimo sengqondo ngokumelene nonina nezihlobo. Ngokwemiyalelo yentombazane, indodana yahamba edolobheni futhi yanquma bonke ubuhlobo nezihlobo zayo, yabavimba ezinkundleni zokuxhumana futhi yashintsha inombolo yocingo. Ngezansi sinikeza ngendlela efushanisiwe incwadi evela kunina egcwele ubuhlungu nokuphelelwa yithemba.
Indaba engagwegwesi yowayengungqingili, echaza impilo yansuku zonke “yezitabane” ezijwayelekile - izigebengu ezingapheli, ukuxega kanye nezifo ezihambisana nazo, amakilabhu, izidakamizwa, izinkinga zamathumbu aphansi, ukucindezeleka kanye nokuququda, umuzwa onganeliseki wokunganeliseki nesizungu, kusukela okuwukuziphatha okubi kanye ne-Datura enikeza kuphela ukuphumula kwesikhashana. Lokhu kulandisa kuqukethe imininingwane enyanyekayo yezenzo zobungqingili nemiphumela yazo, okushiya insalela yendle ecasulayo ngokungangabazeki ezoba nzima kumfundi ovamile. Ngesikhathi esifanayo, badlulisela konke ngokunembile sokuhlakaza ububi bokuphila kobungqingili buqhathaniswa nokuhlanza umbala wethanga. Ibonisa iqiniso elibuhlungu lobungqingili besilisa njengoba linjalo ngempela - umkhonyovuongenangqondo futhi ongenamusa. “Ukuba yisitabane” ekugcineni kusho ukuhlupheka nobuhlungu okucijwe ku-ukumbiwa kwegazi negazi, kunokuba kubambelele ezandleni zabafana abanamehlo amakhulu e-kawaii yoyoynyh inganekwane yabalandeli.
Funda kabanzi »Igama lami nginguChristopher Doyle. Ngingudokotela wezengqondo phakathi Isikhwama Sokwelashwa Kwamazwe Ngamazwefuthi ngingungqingili.
Funda kabanzi »Mfundi othandekayo, igama lami nginguJake. Ngingungqingili owayeneminyaka engamashumi amabili ngivela eNgilandi. Le dayari ingeyalabo abaphikisana nombono wokushintsha isimo sezocansi. Ochwepheshe bafunde ezocansi amashumi eminyaka futhi baphethe ngokuthi ezocansi ziyahlukahluka kubantu abaningi. Ubufakazi busikisela ukuthi imizwa yezocansi ingashintsha impilo yonke. Iqiniso lokuthi abantu abaningi bashintsha isimo sabo sokuya ocansini iqiniso elifakazelwe ngezibalo. Ngingomunye walaba bantu.
Angisazizwa ngikhangwa ngabesilisa ngokobulili; amantombazane manje akhange kakhulu kimi. Ngake ngacabanga kanjalo, kodwa manje sengicabanga.
Ngesinye isikhathi, ngilele ngobusuku obunesizungu, ngazibona ngisezingalweni zenye indoda, manje sengingazibona ngise ntombazane yesifazane.
Abanye abeneme ngalesi simo sezinto. Baqinisekile ngocansi lwabo kangangokuba abakwazi ukwamukela ukuthi kunalabo abangasenayo imizwa yabo. Bajabule kakhulu lapho abantu baphenduka ubungqingili, kodwa abathandi lapho kwenzeka okuphambene. Kwesinye isikhathi abantu abanjengami babizwa ngokuba ngabasuki bezondo, futhi lokho kungenxa yokuthi angisafuni ukulala nabantu besilisa!
Ngabe bangathanda ukuthi ngithule ngokushintsha ubulili bami, ngiphile ngamanga futhi ngiphike okwenzekile? Yebo, kubonakala ngathi! Bafuna ukungithulisa, bangincishe ilungelo lokuphila ngendlela engiyikhethayo, futhi bangiphoqe ukuthi ngiholele indlela yokuphila ebona ukuthi iyadingeka!
Angigcinanga ngokuyeka ukuba yisitabane, kodwa futhi ngizizwa ngijabule ngokwengeziwe. Mina uqobo ngizophatha impilo yami ngendlela engifuna ngayo, hhayi indlela abangitshela ngayo. Nginqume ukuguqula ubulili bami futhi ngakwenza.
Icaphuna izishoshovu zezitabane:
Ngilapha!
Angisemgceni futhi!
Jwayela!
Indaba ephelele ngesiNgisi: https://www.equalityandjusticeforall.org/diary-of-an-ex-gay-man
Indaba sayithumelela umfundi wethu.
Okokuqala nje, umphakathi owangikhulisa ubonakele kangakanani. Futhi uma bethi manje ukuthi “Siyazenza thina” ukuzikhohlisa. Ngaso sonke isikhathi futhi ngaso sonke isikhathi, ngumphakathi osenza sibe yilokho esiyikho. Cabanga ngalokhu: uwedwa ekhaya, abanye enkulisa, wesithathu esikoleni, wesine emgwaqweni. Uthi cha? - Yebo, yebo. Futhi okwenzekayo nentsha manje kuyangethusa. Kuyesabisa kakhulu.
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