The thoughts often come that there is no more strength.
If one day I can't stand it, then let you
will be our story. Maybe someone will help.
And if not, then let it remain history
one broken life and insane pain.

We were approached by a mother whose twenty-year-old son suddenly dropped out of university in his fourth year and ran away from home so that no one could prevent him from “changing sex”. It all started a couple of years ago with a conversation with a very strange girl on the Internet, who has a clear tendency to manipulation, submission and gynemimethophilia - attraction to men in women's clothing and transsexuals. The girl calls her son only "my beloved girl." There is a constant psychological influence on him and an attitude against his mother and relatives. On the instructions of the girl, the son left the city and cut off all ties with his relatives, blocking them on social networks and changing the phone number. Below we give in an abbreviated form a letter from his mother full of pain and despair.

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Lenya is the youngest of my two children. His father left us when he was 2 years old. The children endured it very hard. The daughter cried constantly. They even called me to school, asked why the child was crying in class. For a long time, the son shouted at any rustle outside the door that dad had come and ran to open the door. 

He grew up as an ordinary boy, never played girls' games, never said that he was a girl. Never. He loved cartoons about Spider-Man and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Then Naruto, Pokémon. From toys like kites, robots, skate, rollers. I dreamed of a flying saucer on the control panel.

In the first grade I went to karate. Then he began to seriously engage in figure skating. When he grew up, he switched to pair skating. When he had already reached a very serious level in sports, he suffered a foot injury that blocked his path to sports. The whole world collapsed for him. Everything for which he plowed all his childhood fell apart. He was in a very serious condition. He began to spend a lot of time playing computer games and watching anime. Because of this, he was poorly socialized - not adapted to the social environment and normal communication. He had very little interest in the real world. I sat mainly on anime English-language sites. He worked remotely. Sexually, he was also inhibited - not showing the slightest interest in romantic relationships.

After graduating from the 11th grade, the son went to college. As a freshman, he took a German surname. Then he showed the finished passport. I did it myself, without telling anyone. This did not surprise us much, because he used to say that he was offended by his father and did not want to bear his last name. But this was the first bell. Approximately in the middle of the first year, I remember, my son with a completely happy look said that Katya, with whom they talked on the Internet, wrote to him and confessed her love to him. Hearing this for the first time in his life, he walked as in a dream. At about the same time, constant correspondence with her began. I noticed that every night my son did not sleep, but corresponded with Katya. In the morning to get up for school, and he goes to bed at 4-5 in the morning. I tried to talk to my son, but everything went on as before. Well, I thought, young, first feelings. Before that, he had never had a serious relationship, so he treats them very seriously and reverently. 

In July, Katya and her mother came to visit us. Even then, some things seemed strange to me. For example, the fact that the mother brought her tenth-grader daughter to the boy and put them to bed together in a separate room. As if the girl did not return home with a gift. I was also surprised that when we entered the cafe, Katya rudely answered her mother in a bass. And at the meeting, she pretended to be a quivering doe, is about to faint with excitement, as the acquaintance passes. Then, apparently, she noticed my surprise and stopped short. But I was very surprised at such a drastic change. And the voice for a girl is not girlish - it does not match her appearance. But I drove such thoughts away from myself. Then I still thought that Katya was my son's bride and in the future, after finishing their studies, they would get married. My son told me so. He assured them that they had love.

In October, I decided to clean my son's room and saw the pill packs on my desk. Many were already empty, started. The instructions said that these are hormonal contraceptive pills for women. I wondered why my son needed this. His answer when he returned from university shocked me. I, he says, drink them to make the transition and become a woman. I am a transgender mom.

Then I practically did not know anything about it, except that these are mentally ill people who change into clothes of the opposite sex and, possibly, undergo operations. But Lenya was sitting in front of me! My son, whom I have seen and known all his life. And I never noticed anything. I heard that it manifests itself in childhood. But Lyonya is an ordinary boy who was friends with boys, fell in love with girls. He flew kites, drove on a skateboard. I always wanted to be a greenhouse in my sport, and this is support, emissions - you need to be physically strong, so he used simulators and lifted a kettlebell. But, however, he lends itself to influence very easily: after watching the TV series "Sherlock", he began to imitate the hero in dress and manner; after seeing Dr. House, he began to say that he was a sociopath. 

I asked how long he had been taking pills. He said it was already a year! Describe what I felt then ... The earth went out from under my feet. My healthy child makes himself an invalid with his own hands! Later, however, he admitted that he had been drinking them for 3 months at that time, and said a year, so that I had no doubt that everything was serious. I begged him to stop taking pills and seek help from specialists. He agreed to go to a psychiatrist. There he said that he identifies himself as a girl. The doctor asked questions, and it was clear that she had no understanding of what was happening. She offered to be like a day hospital, to be observed. She was frightened by the possibility of the debut of schizophrenia - her son said very strange things. She told me that she saw this for the first time. Well, that doesn't sound like transsexualism. She said that his relationship with Katya is very strange: every day, or rather, every night, there is a constant discussion of the transgender topic. She does not leave him for a minute, constantly keeps under control - where he is, what he is doing. Well, I noticed that too. We even joked before - are you asking Katya to go to the toilet too?

The doctors on the commission have not decided on the diagnosis. They talked about anxiety, depression. A suicidologist worked with him, nothing too. They recommended contacting the regional clinic. And there, too, doctors, after a month's observation, did not diagnose transsexualism. They asked him tricky questions to understand whether he was pretending or not, and they also said: something is not right here. The discharge said that he had mixed personality disorder with gender dysphoria (according to his words) and was prescribed antidepressants. 

Commentary: I would say that the son, wanting to erase the traumatic past, seeks to get rid of his former personality, leaving behind all the adversity that befell her. The change of surname, in fact, can be regarded as the first step. Unfortunately, LGBT-friendly psychologists, instead of providing the necessary help, will persuade him to destructive “gender reassignment”.

I tried my best to get it right. I thought he would somehow calm down, since the doctors did not make such a diagnosis. And he told me: let's not talk about it, we will live on. I did just that. I tried to talk with him on other topics, cook something tasty, hug him once again. But on the other side there was unceasing work. And just recently, in my son's room, I came across his diary. Where do such thoughts come from in the head of a beloved child? I could not believe, reading how he calls my daughter and grandson "these people" and writes "they hate me." But this is nonsense! Where did it come from? Who hammered this into his head? Judging from the context, Katya. But for what? 

Six months before his son escaped from home, a guy wrote to him online. According to his son, he once crossed paths with this guy in an online game and nothing more. He was very interested in his life, wrote to him directly 24/7. My son shared with me and said with surprise: “Wow, he has been writing to me all day. Doesn't he have his own affairs, work? As soon as I write to him, he answers at the same minute. So worried about me. "

About a year before these events, I decided to look at what kind of friends my son has on the network. There were hidden friends there. Why hide them is unclear. I was also surprised that one of them blocked my access by adding me to the black list, although we never spoke and were even strangers. For what? But it was he who, under the name Kira, constantly communicated with his son, and now Sergey. I also asked my son, is Kira a girl? And the son replied, no, this is Cyril in abbreviated form. But now it’s not Kirill either. Something is incomprehensible about this guy. He and Katya mostly talked with their son.

I tried to talk to my son heart to heart like a mother, I asked: son, here you say that you feel like a girl. Well, what about Katya, you are not physically drawn to her? The son answered something very hesitantly: "No, I am not attracted to anyone." I realized that the relationship was strange, and there was no need to talk about any love in the full sense of the word. Why both claim that this is love for life is not clear. And when we just found out about the pills, the grandmother asked her son, how are they going to get married, does Katya also have a similar problem? And the son replied: "Well, apparently."

Commentary: It can be assumed that Katya has another problem - gynemimethophilia. This is a form of sexual fetishism, the object of which is men who imitate women. Gynemimethophiles are often attracted to transgender men. At the same time, the fetishist is only interested in his own sexual fantasy, and he does not care about the real personality of a person - his life, well-being, experiences. And this is exactly what we see in Katya's case: Lenya is only interested in her in the role of Alice. So there is no need to talk about any love on her part - she only cynically uses the plight of a vulnerable young man to satisfy her perverse inclinations. The sooner Lenya realizes this, the more chances for him to get out of this unhealthy relationship with a minimum of damage to himself. 

When I found out about pills, etc., I still did not understand the role of Katya. I tried to talk to her. I thought, since she says that she loves, then maybe she will help me convince my son. I wrote to her that I had contacted a psychiatrist on the hotline, and I was told to urgently bring my son, especially if he takes pills uncontrollably and hurts himself. But Katya's reaction was very strange. She began to convince me not to seek help. She said that they would make him a vegetable, that the doctors were unqualified, she demanded to send her reviews of their patients, she was rude, spoke boorishly. I was shocked.

Regarding the fact that hormonal drugs will irreversibly make her son a sterile impotent for life, she replied: “Okay, let's omit the part where we were not even asked if we were planning children. Let's assume we're planning. The genetic material can be stored in a cryochamber and later used to make babies. That's all".

Of course, they did not preserve any genetic material.

I tried to talk to Katya's mom. There is also more than a strange reaction. Any mother of the girl would be shocked, but here, as if she had known everything for a long time. It also turned out that Katya had never been to St. Petersburg, although her son claimed that he met her there. Why he lied, I don't know. Apparently there is something to hide. Then it turned out that when they came to us, Katya's mother had already called him Alice. She really knew everything for a long time. Why then did you bring your daughter? What did you need from your son? To put the squeeze on, to persuade, to motivate?

I went to Katya's page. I think I'll see what the future bride is interested in. And there are LGBT, furries, BDSM, pornographic drawings and more.

These are the interests at the age of 16-17. What to expect? I wrote to her mother that we urgently need to get the children out of this mud. The answer simply killed: “It's not on your son's page, why do you need to read all this? You need to be more with your son, give him warmth. And you don't need to send it to me. "

My daughter and I understood that something very bad was happening to Lyonka. Someone is brainwashing him and very hard. We found out that my son turned to LGBT support in Moscow and asked for help. Allegedly, he is not allowed out of the house, and if he comes to Moscow, can they help him. A lot of Japanese porn anime about two girls was saved on his tablet. There was also a correspondence with Katya, where for quite a long time, even before her arrival in our city, she wrote him her erotic fantasies, referring to her son in the feminine gender, calling him "my girl", "my beloved girl", "as if I wanted to see your legs in black stockings. " Sex pen letters. Literally. My daughter became ill with her heart from what she had read, and we only read the correspondence in two days. I had to give up the tablet and solder my daughter with Corvalol. This despite the fact that she is a pretty strong person, she is 27 years old. It was too shocking. All she could do was repeat: "She is sick in the whole head." And now all this is all the more going on - no one interferes. For this, she pulled him out of the family. To do this, he turns him against his mother. Encourages not to communicate, to cut off all ties with the family. I cannot contact my son in any way, in any way.

Earlier, the son said that Katya shares the ideas of radical feminism, and that he also supports them. I began to tell him what it really is. But he did not want to listen: "Katya cannot be wrong." Is it her goal to kill the guy in him? Or him at all?

Now he lives in a rented apartment with Katya. She supports him in all this. And he really values ​​his relationship with her. When his grandmother was able to get through to him for the last time, he told her not to call him anymore Lenya, and that he had already changed the documents for women. On what he lives, I do not know - 16,500 must be paid for housing. Well, let's say they pay him 25 at a distance. No shoes, no clothes, no food. He told his grandmother that a neighbor often comes to him and brings fish. By the way, the son never ate fish, only the smell of fish caused his gag reflex. Only if he is completely starving can he be allowed to eat fish. And if he is starving, it will be easy to persuade him to unlawful actions for the sake of earnings. I'm afraid of that too. After all, they can substitute.

When talking, he changes his voice to a squeaky, as if female, under the T-shirt wears a bra. There is nothing to wear it on, but nonetheless. I think it takes hormones too. In general, there is little good. I do not know what to do. We need a specialist. He himself does not agree to go anywhere. He says that he was already with a psychologist and he was helped. But what kind of psychologist and what help is there if his nerves are like a string? I'm afraid the psychologist is LGBT. But where to find a specialist whom he would have heard? They are the same as sectarians... Worse. And he didn't even listen to me at home. All attempts to explain - with hostility. I ran away so they wouldn't get in the way.

Comment: In fact, you can help your son by providing psychological assistance to him and Nadya. Perhaps legislators should consider this issue and recognize inclination to “change sex” as causing harm to health of moderate severity (Article 112 of the Criminal Code. Intentional infliction of moderate harm to health).

I saw an article on RIA Novosti "Children are hooked on anime and suicidal."... Word for word about my son. I also constantly watched anime and drew voraciously. And he and Katya. And after that, our young healthy children run away from home to take hormonal drugs. Change gender. From this they irreversibly become childless impotent for life. And when you realize that you have done with yourself with your own hands, what happens then? 41% of transgender suicide attempts - why? This is a war against our youth. Children of alcoholics get drunk on their own, and these children are healthy - they are destroyed quietly. And not the first year. And in this way they even affect children from successful families. I knew him all my life, and I always understood that he was a normal boy with boyish interests. There was nothing feminine even close. Before anime and Katya.

Anime communities are wild. There are many closed groups. My son was sitting in these, he himself talked about it. Millions of children are already involved in this. Colored hair is from there. His entire page, all the photos saved are anime. He even put himself on the profile picture as a girl with purple hair. There are no photos of my own from real life at all. What is it like sect.

We need to raise this topic, attract specialists, if, of course, we have such. When it touched us, in fact, there is nowhere to turn.

We NEED a crisis assistance service for adolescents and parents, where there will be specialists who are in the subject of the problems that adolescents face today, and not 20 years ago. Doctors, suicidologists, sexologists have never heard of anime, LGBT propaganda, anti-family propaganda, suicidal content, or recruitment. How can they help? Digging for childhood traumas the old fashioned way? Because the enemy is strong, because no one opposes him - there is no one. Such specialists are not trained anywhere, but they have been needed for 10 years already. Psychologists, especially young ones, study according to Western programs and standards. Say, parents need to accept such a child and support in the "transition", and not pull him out of this nightmare. And I faced this too. 

The opinion of real, not intimidated LGBT doctors is important. Sex hormones (testosterone and estrogen) cause irreversible damage to the baby's health, including high blood pressure, blood clots, stroke, and cancer. This is a silent murder. We are losing good healthy smart kids in this hell.

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Postscript of the Science for Truth group

Despite the fact that scientists are really intimidated and suppressed by the outright pressure of LGBT activists, psychiatrists and the ministries of health of the regions of the Russian Federation supported appeal group "Science for Truth" to scientists, public figures, and politicians.

The appeal, supported by more than 50 Russians, proposes measures that can stop the already obvious madness for many, when, based on considerations aimed at reducing the birth rate globally (in which UN structures are actively involved), children are harmed through the promotion and approval of behavior that leads to infertility or unwillingness to give birth to children, including with the help of "sex lumen».

What to do?

Scientists, psychiatrists, sexologists, the Ministry of Health

1. To unite efforts to form objective and scientifically reliable ideas about the mental norm, so that homosexuality, transsexualism, sadism and other paraphilias are not considered a health option. Create a working group of specialists working in the field of psychiatry and psychology, jurisprudence and legal sciences to conduct joint comprehensive research and scientific work in the field of psychosexual health.

2. Publish research papers on these topics in international and Russian publications. Take an active position in international discourse.

3. To form clinical guidelines, taking into account Russian scientific experience, including the experience of eliminating unwanted same-sex attraction and correcting other deviations in psychosexual development. Create a classification of mental disorders adapted for the Russian Federation, as was the case with the ICD-9 in the USSR.

4. Develop mechanisms to control the activities of psychologists and sexologists who violate the law prohibiting the promotion of non-traditional relationships among minors in the so-called. "Gay / trans-affirming" therapy and attempts to introduce corrupting ideology under the guise of "sex lumen».

5. To develop new and update existing methods of correction and prevention of deviations in psychosexual development.

6. Develop a scientifically grounded strategy for the protection of pro-family values, with the publication of works in international and Russian editions of the RSCI core.

7. Prohibit the issuance of certificate No. 087 / y "Certificate on the change of sex." Review the validity of previously issued certificates.

8. Add hormonal preparations used to delay sexual development and trans transition to the list of drugs subject to subject-quantitative accounting.

For legislators and politicians

 1. To reconsider the level of cooperation with the UN and WHO and their funding in connection with activities that are contrary to the Constitution, Russian legislation and strategic goals for the sustainable growth of the population of the Russian Federation with an increase in life expectancy to 78 years. We are talking about the UN population policy in general and the promotion of the normality of homosexuality to children in the WHO sex education standards in particular. 

2. To toughen the punishment for promoting homosexuality, transsexualism, abortion, childlessness and other types of depopulation behavior in the context of the current demographic crisis. Extend the ban on propaganda of depopulation ideologies to all age categories.

3. To toughen the punishment for violation of the legislation "On the protection of children from information that is harmful to their health and development." Recognize involvement in a homosexual lifestyle and “gender reassignment” as infliction of moderate harm under Article 112 of the Criminal Code of the Russian Federation.

4. Develop a system of control over the dissemination of information harmful to children, including with the involvement of private businesses and family organizations.

5. To compel the mass media and social networks operating in Russia to independently block information harmful to children, which contradicts the ideas of the Russian scientific school.

6. Introduce restrictions on the dissemination of destructive and anti-cultural ideas through music and media projects, when disgusting "music", films and bloggers' activities on social networks serve as a way of profit.

7. Create our own sovereign video hosting sites, search engines independent of Western corporate views, as well as social networks that cooperate with the state in the fight against the dissemination of information harmful to children.

8. Raise the age of consent for homosexual relationships.

9. To provide an opportunity for Russian scientists to express their scientific position without fear for a career and salary. The bonus part of the salary of scientists depends on the publication activity. Under the conditions of "political correctness" and censorship, Western and Russian publications with a high impact factor do not publish works that run counter to the policy of depathologizing depopulation behavior (propaganda of homosexuality, transsexualism and other psychosexual deviations), which puts pressure on the free presentation of a scientific position. Scientists are intimidated.

LGBT sect. Please help!

Dear deputies of the State Duma of the Russian Federation!

Advocacy turns teens into transgenders